i thought i came to terms with things when she told me a bit ago, but??? how do you come to terms with something like this – ever? i cried so much when i found out and now it’s real and it’s happened and asjodfk. regardless, i’m so grateful that i met someone as amazing as her. i haven’t known her /that/ long, but once we started talking on skype, we talked every day. we had so many laughs and fun times together and we had so much in common and we were supposed to hang out over break because we basically lived next to each other and just?? ajsdofkaskdfj i’m sorry, i’m really trying to make sense of why this would happen to someone so amazing with so much ahead of them. it’s not fair. i love you so much, rest in peace. <3